!SelfLove

Well sorry to break your heart, the content is just the opposite of that. If your from tech background or coding, you will know the reference. Anyways.

I don’t love myself. Maybe a little sometimes, but that’s a different conversation for another day, I guess. Most of the time, what I do is self-hate. Because why not? If I started loving myself too much, I will feel like I have become someone normal. Like everyone else. I’d stop pushing myself past my limits the way I do right now. The things i have done, the thoughts I carry, the way i speak nownone of that came from comfort, I had to hate parts of myself enough to change them. Otherwise, I did still be that same dumb kid who thought the world was fair for everyone. ANYWAYS.

People saying “don’t hate yourself” or “stop self-deprecating, its unhealthy” but they were never in my place. Maybe someone else would’ve handled it differently. Maybe not. It depends on the person, the mindset, the way they survive things.

BUT AS I AM RIGHT NOW HATING MYSELF GOT ME TO IMPROVE MYSELF MORE THAN LOVING MYSELF.

The love I have for others is something I could never give myself.
And the hatred I have for myself is something I could never give to others.

I love completely or not at all, maybe thats why I never came to love myself as I couldn’t do it fully at all.